I just worked the entire day (for about 16 or so hours) in lab on Christmas.

Because I had to wait until the last minute to get everything settled and my back is killing me for being bent over for as long as I have been. And tomorrow, I get to head in at 6:00AM to finish up the stuff that could not be done today.

When am I supposed to pack for my trip back to China? When self?!

*deads*

(And contrary to everything I have just said, I'm actually not resentful of working on Christmas. This is practically a tradition for me by this point, since I'm the only person ever who is willing to work on Christmas, because winter holidays mean nothing to me. :p)


P.S. Sekrit message to crazythinker00:

I HAVE RECEIVED YOUR CARE PACKAGE. YOU ARE IN MY HEART. ALWAYS. OMG!!!!! All my hearts belong to you! I can't even begin...where...what... Holy Shit that is a lot of stuff!!! o.O *flails*

Y'know, I'm getting fucking sick and tired of fandom and it's fucking assumptions.

Why would Erik, WHO IS JEWISH, need to learn the meaning of Christmas? Why fandom? Why would you request these things? Why would you write these things? NOT EVERYONE IS A CHRISTIAN FOR FUCK'S SAKE.

And you know what? No, good will toward men does not require you to celebrate Christmas. People are nicer during the holiday season because it's the fucking end of the year and things are miserable and really, just being nicer and more fucking understanding is something everyone can appreciate, WITHOUT IT NEEDING TO BE FUCKING CHRISTMAS.

Fuck you.

Antisemitism, it's still so fucking alive it hurts.

What really pisses me off is that fandom is so self fucking righteous about how understanding and open and progressive it is, then it pulls this shit and we're right back in the 1940s. Maybe if fandom had responded with "Why would Erik need to learn about Christmas?" I'd be a little more understanding, but fuck no, everyone is so fucking on board with this stupid prompt and I lose a little more faith in humanity.

Fuck it all, Magento was right. The human race should just die off.

Battle of the Sciences

This is...disturbingly close to a conversation I had with a friend on the meta of X-Men, which came down to a battle of life vs. physical sciences.

I...really wish I had the ability to fill this prompt. Someone who is not me needs to write this, dammit.

Edit:

OMG IDEK. So much crack. *dies laughing* (Little mini-vids of ahahahahahaha!)

Title: Rebound

Fandom: XMFC

Rating: G

Pairing: Erik/Charles - is there any other?! :p

Summary: A really stupid idea that I had that I decided to write down, because I'm tired of "poor Charles and his telepathy, it's such a burden to be able to hear people's thoughts" angst. So instead, I write about Charles over using his telepathy and suffering the consequences.

Disclaimer: All is belong to Marvel, etc.

( Morning was when the boys were still sleeping in, when Charles was recovering from a night out in town, when Erik was wandering in nothing but sleep pants, hair mussed and poking around the cabinets looking for breakfast before his morning run. Really, there’s not a lot to not love about mornings. )

Even more characters!

And of course I only just realized, there is a meowneto...oh, meowneto. XD

Seriously need to make a meowneto icon when I have the time. (And if anyone designs a Purrfessor Cat to go with Meowneto, I will die of happy.)

Title: Below Septal

Pairing: Erik/Charles

Rating: NC-17 over all, PG in this part

Chapter: 2

Chapter summary: Charles gets closer to being laid and Erik gets a lot more philosophical.

Author's notes: For more story details, check Prologue.

There's a lot of talking, because until they can talk their problems out like adults, there is no happy end and I want a happy end. Also, both of them are acting a lot more mature than their movie counterparts, although Charles will forever have the libido and impulse control of a teenager, which is to say, too much of the former and none of the latter.

Prevoius Chapter

( Yakkity yak )

A Lady Gaga parody sends your entire lab into stitches.

Dead. Just dead.

I...*sigh*

*crawls back towards stuff she doesn't care about*

Um, have been trying to write Below Septal and decided I did not want to use this. The fic is now at 10k words and I still haven't managed to convince Erik into bedding Charles, but you get this porn snippet until I can get chapter 2 wrapped up.

Fandom: X-men First Class

Series: Below Septal - cut scene

Pairing: Erik/Charles

Rating: NC-17

Disclaimers: Not belong to me, etc. etc.

( PWP, and not part of Below Septal story. )

Random:

Every time I see a Sub!Erik fic, it makes me that much more determined to finish writing mine.

*hates Sub!Erik with the burning passion of a thousand suns*

I'm really trying to write this, but I realized that I will need more research into the depths of nanobots and DNA engineering, but wouldn't it be cool if in a Charles/Erik University AU, they meet each other as a result of teaching biophysics together and decided to work on a collaboration?

See, in my recent ethics course, we'd been discussing the do's and don'ts of scientific collaborations and one person described science collaborations as "a romantic relationship." Most faculty treat collaborations like dating, when what they should be doing is writing up prenups in the case the collaboration falls through and the partners need to "divorce".

XD

Just...think of the potential. Prof!Erik and Prof!Charles approaching their collab as a "date" rather than a "marriage", suddenly realize how deep they're getting and then the project falls through, the inevitable "divorce" happens, and legal problems over IP ownership arise, all the ugly and finally the two labs just can't take any more of the back and forth UST and decide even if the science marriage failed, at the last the two Profs can get together and leave the rest of them out of their wrath.

/silly

Edit:
Oh and for those who are wondering, the full article is titled "Collaborations: With all good intentions" (Nature 452, 682-684 (2008) | doi:10.1038/452682a). XD

I have an infection of some sort in my right eye that is currently killing me. It hurts and is sore and makes me want to die. And eye drops are not helping.

Why yes, it was necessary to inflict my pain onto you. :D

In other news, I am losing all motivation to finish my degree. Ugh. I think I might suffer from mild depression.

I had a bad, bad day. I write for therapy. Will work on the other fic some other time. Have fluff.

Fandom: X-men First Class

Pairing: Erik/Charles

Rating: G

Disclaimer: All is belong to FOX, Marvel, Stan Lee, etc. etc.

Summary: Drunken confessions. Erik may just have a little bit of a crush on Captain America. Charles may just be slightly jealous. Maybe. Neither are actually going to do anything about any of this.

( I need drunken, painstakingly honest Erik/Charles, so...yeah. )

Title: Below Septal

Pairing: Erik/Charles

Rating: NC-17 over all, PG-13 in this part (the porn is coming, I swear)

Chapter: 1

Chapter summary: The first meeting re-written.

Author's notes: For more story details, check Prologue.

This story is now seriously AU. There's a bit of re-imagining of Charles' and Erik's powers, along with changing the details of their meeting and how people are reacting. Hopefully this set up with make the rest of the story not as OOC. Next chapter will take much longer to come out.

Previous Chapter

( My writing is still not clever. )

Title: Below Septal

Fandom: X-men: First Class

Pairing: Erik/Charles

Rating: Overall NC-17, this part PG-13

Chapter: Prologue

Disclaimer: All is belong to FOX, Marvel, Stan Lee, etc. etc.

Summary: When electrodes are placed in the lateral region below septal area in self-stimulating rats, androgens augmented lever pressing behavior. Charles has found the telepathic equivalent in humans.

Author's Notes: Dabbling in some science nerdiness and still trying to find a voice for Charles and Erik that I can agree with. Since my interpretations of these characters seem wildly different from the rest of fandom, may come off as OOC.

And nothing really happens in this part except for some self-stimulation.

( My writing is not clever. )
Next Chapter

So, I'm working on an XMFC kink meme fill on incorporating the classic Olds' study where rats lever press for stimulation of the septum (and triggering the reward pathway). The problem is the kink prompt claimed that rats will forgo food and water to press lever for the stimulus, yet I have yet to find the paper of the study that supports this claim.

Oh sure, wikipedia is all over this, as is many non-scientific articles that make these claims, and yet there is no actual science to back it up.

What. The. Fuck.

Of course, now I'm sitting here editing this thing, because, dude, factual inaccuracy in fics makes me twitch, but more importantly why the fuck am I caring? I don't study addiction, why do I give a shit if I got the facts right?

Blah.

Oh, and if you happen to come across the publication that actually demonstrates rats do in fact forgo food and water and self stimulate to the point of exhaustion, please point me to the article as I would like to know what their methodology was.

Edit:
Okay, found it. Olds, 1958. Dear Wiki, was it that hard to put in these citations? Oh fuck you.

And, surprise, surprise, once again people were oversimplifying things. No, rats did not forgo food and water to lever press for a stimulation reward. When the electrode was stimulating hunger-related reward, hunger augmented the lever pressing for stimulation. To put this in perspective: when the electrode stimulated areas of the brain that made the rats feel like they've eaten, they would press it more when they're hungry.

Not so sexy anymore, is it?

Cashew is doing another session of decapitations and brain extractions. This is going to be the first session in over a year and Cashew is definitely out of practice.

Ugh, so nervous.

*jitteryjitteryjittery*

So yeah, fluttering around pointlessly while I'm trying to keep in control of things, even though I feel like I'm going to fuck up royally. *cries*

So, finally watched the (not so) new Star Trek and not going to bother with a full review. Just some initial impressions:

• Daddy!Kirk is Thor!
  
  
• Why can't this movie be about Daddy!Kirk? He's infinitely more likeable in the 5 minutes of screen time he's got than Kirk was in the entire movie.
  
  
• Hi McCoy! Wait, why do you look so famili--holy shit, it's Éomer! Hi McÉomer! I wish to hug you!
  
  
• Wow, BB!Spock is kind of a dick. Huh.
  
  
• Hi Chekov! Oh and you poor baby, the Federation's so biased against Russians, not your fault. *pets*
  
  
• McCoy's awesome just keeps rising with every scene. Also, allergy jokes. Hee!
  
  
• Ahahaha, Sulu and fencing. Booyah, origami katana of death!
  
  
• Whoa, did BB!Spock just throw Kirk off the ship to die? Isn't that a little harsh? What the...
  
  
• OMG, it's Spock! Like, real Spock! Hi Spock Spock!
  
  
• Scotty! OMG Scotty! Hi Scotty!
  
  
• McCoy calling out Spock's dickishness. Huh. Wow, McCoy is fast becoming my favorite character.
  
  
• Action sequences are pretty decent. Phaser guns don't look quite so stupid in the new movie, possibly because they hold them like they're guns and not toys. *nodnod*
  
  
• And Kirk saves the day, big surprise...
  
  
• Oh god, BB!Spock meeting Spock Spock! Uwah, time space continuum babble and...ahahah, Spock Spock has quite a sense of humor. I guess he's finally learned to embrace his human side.
  
  
• ERIC BANA AKA HECTOR AKA THE HULK WAS IN THIS MOVIE? WHAT??
  
  
• Whatever happened to the classic Star Trek intro? Shouldn't they have classic Trek music to end the movie?

Yeah. Still flailling.

Seeing as I did not have a kitty icon that wasn't animated, I figured it was time that I fixed that particular oversight.

Speaking of, I need someone to get me a ROFL icon one of these days. I need more happy icons.

Warning: mildly ranty as a result of fic trawling through kink memes and honestly, I need to be doing other things, but I can't seem to help myself.

I like Erik. I like Erik more than Charles. (If this point isn't ridiculously obvious at this time, you've clearly been ignoring my ramblings on porn preferences, in which case, you might want to skip this, too.) And again, we're talking about First Class Charles, not the Professor X from comic canon or the other X-men movies.

Anyway, my point here is that I wish kink meme writers will follow the request for First Class and write characters as they appear in First Class instead of dragging characterizations in from other media. Because if I wanted a generic X-men kink fic, I'll go to a generic X-men kink meme, not a First Class kink meme.

Of course, what spurred this particular temper tantrum is a trend I'm starting to notice in fanfic when it comes to dealing with First Class Charles.

( And now, the rambliness. Watch your step. )

(On a slightly different note, I would like to point out that I don't think Erik is the better man, just that he's not worse. I think it would be a disservice to the characters to think either is more moral than the other. They are equally flawed.)

*points to title*

1. Graduate school setting stories written by people not in grad school.
   
   
2. University AUs.
   
   
3. Science fiction AUs.
   
   
4. Anything science in fiction.
   
   
5. Teacher AUs. Professor AUs.

I despair.

In short, knowing how graduate school really works and the cutthroat nature of academia, I find most university AU stories so ridiculously idealized and not setting appropriate that I can't even enjoy the porn anymore. Not to mention the complete lack of understanding on how difficult it is to get a degree in the sciences and reading about super geniuses breezing through their programs just makes me go "dude, you've never had to do experiments in your life, have you?"

On the other hand, I can also no longer write these fics, since they feel too close to home and no longer escapism.

/rambling